It hurts....

It hurts that you think I am over you as quick as you were over me. I am no where near close, I'm still healing. A week is not long enough so of course I have no intention of talking to you. I am going to man up though and show you how strong I am, that I don't need you standing there next to me giving me the confidence that I clearly lack.
Even though I still feel sad and heart broken I will move on. I won't ponder on this feeling.
I want to go back to what we had, I just wish you gave me the time to heal instead of thinking we both have to same feelings. As much as I miss you and just want to be in your arms again I know I can't so I might as well move on from this feeling.
Ohh well life goes on and there is no point thinking this can change because you obviously never want me more then a friend, if you even want me as a friend.

Living God....

"For I know the plans I have for you" declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." - Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV)

I worship an amazing God. He is not against us as humans He is FOR US! How amazing, we don't desevere his love as humans but he still sent His ONE and ONLY son down on this earth to die for our sins. Jesus did something no one else can do and He rose again 3 days later, how AMAZING and all for US! That just boggles my mind sometimes. When God brought His son down on this earth that was him making a promise to be human for eternity. I love God so much for his sacrifce and want to live my life all for his glory, I don't care what people think, God is the only one who has the right to judge me, even though as humans it is our nature.

I was at youth the other night and was asked to read Jeremiah 29:11 and as I was reading it it was like God was smashing saucepans against my head. At the time I was not in a good place, things for the last few weeks had been hectic and that night was not making things better but once God did that my attitude changed a bit. The next morning I woke up and opened my bible and it opened to that verse. Then my leader came around and I told her about it. Sunday night church that verse was one of the verses said. God works in amazing ways when we really need him there reminding us things that we need to know.

I know my life is heading somewhere amazing, no matter what I am going through now God has it all in his hands. God doesn't want to harm me or you and He won't. He showed us how much He loves us by sending His son down to earth to die for us. There is no greater sacrifice. God has the most amazing plan for both you and I but it is our choice whether we choose to live our life glorfying Him or not.

My choice is to live my life for the big man upstairs, what is yours?

"And if our God is for us then who could ever stop us? And if our God is with us then what can stand against?" <--- Our God by Chris Tomlin